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Hey Guys,

anyone who wants to come with me.. there is a nike run hit remix. thing on the 15th. its a 5 mile run, (brother pleeze this lazy ass is walking and enjoyin the music) but they feature a good handful of bands that you watch and i think its free. you get the cutest tshirt too. so let me know.

a few days after my birthday.. and experiencing the biggest disappointment that no girl should feel from a guy that you care for, but im sure they do everyday.... i have realized some things. and wanted to write the promises i will keep for myself in writing.. on xanga.. so i wont forget. to whomever is reading this wont forget. and tell me and make me remember, so i dont forget.

i will no longer have a boy ruin my birthday. ever.. again.

that i would rather wait,.. and wait. and wait till God tells me I'm ready to live a long life with so much happiness from the man God has chosen for me so i can bring a wonderful loving home to my future kids.

remember The Notebook. my man should be that much in love with me. i think people have settled too much. and not waited long enough that true love, or at least great love is not possible... ill wait. and go to europe in the meantime.

so to europe with mom and connie before i get married.

have improved myself by God and God only..

what happened to me sucked a lot. but i allowed the pain to last for 4 1/2 years. i should have known that first week. reading this im sure you get a sense that wow, she's really into this whole marriage thing. and i am. i am do want to get married and be settled. ill fix what i have with my parents first. and then we will see. but anyways.. thanks for letting me rant.

i feel that the older im getting, the more things im realizing about myself and building higher maturity levels everyday. having no choice. im turning 26 very soon. thats a quarter plus one. again, i am no longer a toys r us kid. but i do want to grow up. its interesting how people grow up. what phase everyone is in their life. these days for me being committed in a relationship, in the process of leaving my church that was so dear to me for a long time, my parents coming back to live with me in december, building higher tolerance from moody coworkers, now being afraid of the possible big one coming to Los Angeles, to possibly saying goodbye to my pretty car, lot to carry. but thank God i dont have to do it all myself.

when i was deciding whether to go to New York for a promotion at work, it took me at such a huge whirlwind and phat headache trying to decide if i would leave my family and friends for my career... first off i never thought id get so far at a company, and secondly, would i really leave my family and friends behind for my job? i felt so hopeless and confused because i couldnt get a word or a clear idea which decision to pick. so i would ask countless people, and their mommas, "what do you think?" so i asked people as much as i asked God. big mistake. after this whole process, and yes, i decided to stay, was that no matter what God still took care of me and in the end i feel, made the best decision. my good friend reminded me in the midst of my confusion, was to get back with God and praise and worship Him and not to think about, what am i going to do instead. not realizing how much i was confusing myself even more and talking to, people... instead of Him. i know after all this, God was just waiting for me to come back to Him. its not about the wrong and right decisions anymore. its about building that relationship up with God everyday, so He will literally open up the flood gates for us so we dont have to worry so much, because it has been taken care of. so if your in the same dilemma, trust me there is time to not think about your decisions and your dilemmas. but that there's always time to talk to God.

Hey guys,

its been a while since ive written with so many things happening. But this weekend was big enough to write about on superstar Xanga. So me and Charkie went to the Korean Concert at Hollywood bowl, which featured Super Junior, Fly to the Sky, Epik High, Boa...  and it was so much fun. Me and Charkie acted super fobby, clapping like one, singing, and yelling for the hot guys that were in these groups. I do have a new korean love, which is the singer from Fly to the Sky. The guy with the deeper voice, Hwan Hee. He's the one on the right. He got this freakin awesome hair cut, really short and he wore sunglasses. I hear he is so much more popular in korea this his counterpart pale face yuppie, Brian. or should i say Bulayan. but oh my gosh hwan hee is soo hot.

Okay, next up, Ekip High. i cant believe my high school friend, daniel armand lee, who i went to prom with, and was asked out by, is now a huge celebrity rap star in korea. but funniest thing is that he's still the same dork that i remember in high school. when all the pp who performed came out to the stage, you see dan (Tabloo) freakin this really popular old skool singer, doing the running man, he was sooo chummy with all the celebrities. they were actually copying him whatever or whenever dan went. one of the most memorable moments was this teen age girl sitting behind us, screaming TABLOO!! TABLOO, go Tabloo!! me and charkie was living it up. so ofcourse we had to cheer and yell for him too. But i yelled Go Dan instead. to keep it real.

But the concert was amazing. so thank you charkie.

and ofcourse, my new car.

thats it folks, at some showroom location it looks like, but now it is at home with me. it took me a while to decide to buy this car. and is it worth it? if you surpass the way it eats gas like a big girl loves her cookies, and the paranoia i have now if this car gets any scratches on it, im in love with my car. its beautiful. i got the white enthusiast, automatic, coupe 07. if anyone is interested in buying a car in the future, my friend who is a broker, helped me get $500 below invoice. he doesnt make any money on these cars, just by the units he sales for the month. so just ask, ill give him his #.

MOVIES

i movie hopped Fracture this weekend. I would give it 68%. the whole movie went by really quick for me. This movie was great objectively, but no need for extra fuss. ryan was very handsome in the movie, but i didnt get enough view time of him. he is very much himself in every role. but the movie basically proves to me that The System, judicial law, etc, sucks. you can have the truth right in front of you and obviously court cases and lawyers and pointless because the killer can be set free either way. so theories, formulas, they can't even help uncover the truth. it probably leads more away from the truth than anything. why doesnt pp know that already? well, i guess then geeks could say that about aliens. urg.

and Hot Fuzz

 the commercial looks funnier. but movie was good.

by the way, i hate growing up. i have never had to make so many decisions in my life. and how much things are so more costly. i hate growing up.

Dinner at Versailles